Unfortunately, I have been in my share of crashes. The worst one yet- My sister had a seizure at the wheel- completely unexpected. All I could remember was pulling people away from the windshield. My sister ended up in the ICU and if I had not been there likely would have died. It is going to take time. I cried almost every night. And for a long time, even though I was not driving, was scared to drive. Even now, I am a little apprehensive at the wheel. I will go out of my way to avoid traffic, left hand turns with no signal, etc. I did not go to therapy, which probably would have helped. What finally let me get through it was the fact that we were all alive. There were 4 of us in the car and we all walked away from the crash without major damage, just some bruises and minor cuts. The car was completely totaled. Every time I started to feel anxious I just thanked God we were all alive. I don't know about you, but a big part of it for me was the feeling of no control. So I just kept replaying the incident in my mind until I realized there was nothing I could do. Hence, the very definition of accident. It is something outside of your control. prior to this crash, I was completely minding my own business waiting for the light to change when a car hit me right on the driver's side - so an accident can happen even if you are being a good driver. Please don't try to blame yourself or think you could have done things differently. It's over and that will not help. I think it will really help if you take stock and see yourself as a winner for having survived the accident. Do what relieves stress for you. For me, it was keeping a journal. I also prayed and talked it out with God. I didn't feel comfortable sharing with anyone else. I didn't want to be a burden. But talking helped. If you want to tell me what happened, I am here for you. It helped me to just say what happened out loud. Some of the stress went away. And if you feel like crying, don't hold it back. Let it out. If you have someone close to you, confide in them. Let them be your shoulder to cry on... Therapy I know would have been very beneficial, but at the time I didn't have insurance. You will get through it. Was this your first crash? It is always harder to forget the first or the really bad ones. I am so glad you walked away from the accident unscathed. The emotional scars will heal... Just need a little patience.
As far as getting behind the wheel again... You will need to regain a little bit of the recklessness you first had when you first learned to drive. Logical beings will always have a hard time driving again after a crash because it does not make sense. I always felt less tense with someone in the car, but that is not really feasible. I went back to the basics. Took the car to a lot and just drove in circles. It brought back some good memories of dad teaching me to drive as a teenager and helped me remember that driving could be fun. It helped me to remember how happy I was when I got my license. You need to regain some of that joy of driving and initial recklessness from when you first learned to get back behind the wheel. It is just a matter of confidence. If you can afford it, I would even suggest one or two driving lessons. If I think of anything else, I will let you know. Remember, everything happens for a reason. This will help you to grow as a person. Please feel free to ask me anything. I want to help ;) Good luck