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I'm 28 and have been sufferring from depression since a very young age. I grew up in a family with unreasonable and emotionally abusive parents. My father wanted a way out of his marriage right when my mother was pregnant with me. Ever since I could remember, I was the one to blame for every little thing that went wrong in the house. They relocated me and aborted my studies 11 times before college. The constant relocation made it difficult for me to keep up with my studies and even more so when it comes to social life. I often felt like a burden to others and wished that I was never given birth to.

My father eventually moved out and left my mother and I in a lonely place. Soon after I became her emotional slave and had to take all kinds of nonsense from her each and everyday. The childhood trauma left me with a permanent scar.

I eventually left the house and moved to another country during highschool. At first, I was doing well. Good grades, lots of close friends and a sweet loved one. Sadly it wasn't long until the torment from the past caught up to me. My father returned as a successful businessman and wanted to make things right. Leaving all my happiness behind, I was home again...only to find out that some things just never change. They messed it up once and for all.

After wasting much of my life in a corrupted family, I decided to finish my degree. However the horrific memories from the past never ceased to haunt me. Whether its during a study session in class, a chat with friends at the cafeteria or a moment of silence before bedtime, there hasn't  been a time when I wasn't feeling the urge to hide.
I have had some counseling and taken some meds but none of that seemed to have helped much. I'm at a point where its not the depression that I can't withstand but rather the inconsistencies in my life. Sometimes I don't want my life back on the right track just so I won't have to go through the whole recalibration again.

I have lost most of my hope in life and have been inches away from ending it in the past couple of days. There is not much strength left in me and I don't know how much longer I can last like this.
I don't want to live in the hellfire of the past. I need some advice on how to fix this.
Country: Canada

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Nothing in your life is wasted.  There are lessons to be learned in our lives.  There are challenges to face.  There is character to be built through these experiences.  Even our sorrows and tears, we learn from or learn to appreciate.  

It seems you still haven't forgiven your parents.  At the cross, Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.”  If He can forgive these men after what they have done to Jesus , so can we forgive.  Don't waste your time in anger and resentment.  It won't change the past.

You mentioned that you don't want your life back on  the right track.  Don't you realize that it is so much harder to get your life back on track than to be on the right track?  Sure, it takes work to be on the right track but with anything worthwhile, it takes work.  If you weren't on the right track, it would be so much harder.       

Throughout your trials, you still managed to obtain your degree.  This is something you should be VERY proud of.  YOU did it despite of your unstable environment.  Many people would have not bothered.  So, there is something inside of you that wants to do better and get better.  I know it is inside of you.  You have focus.  You have determination.  Let these character traits that you have become your asset once again.  

Don't let your past dictate your future.

Surrender to what is.
Let go of what was.
Have faith of what will be.
   Sonia Ricotti

The past is behind you, learn from it.
The future is ahead, prepare for it.
The present is here, live it.
      Thomas S. Monson
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Profile Photo by dolphin007 ANGEL24K (236k points)   7 7 12
Greetings anonymous... try to click on the URL that will surely heal your mind, body & soul...


Verses in the Holy Bible about healing:

Isaiah 41:10 ESV / 376 helpful votes

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Jeremiah 17:14 ESV / 314 helpful votes

Heal me, O Lord, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved, for you are my praise.

1 Peter 2:24 ESV / 277 helpful votes

He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, that we might die to sin and live to righteousness. By his wounds you have been healed.

Jeremiah 33:6 ESV / 262 helpful votes

Behold, I will bring to it health and healing, and I will heal them and reveal to them abundance of prosperity and security.

Isaiah 53:5 ESV / 251 helpful votes

But he was wounded for our transgressions; he was crushed for our iniquities; upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and with his stripes we are healed.

Psalm 103:2-4 ESV / 231 helpful votes

Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits, who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy,

James 5:15 ESV / 209 helpful votes

And the prayer of faith will save the one who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up. And if he has committed sins, he will be forgiven.

James 5:14 ESV / 150 helpful votes

Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord.

James 5:16 ESV / 143 helpful votes

Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.

3 John 1:2 ESV / 126 helpful votes

Beloved, I pray that all may go well with you and that you may be in good health, as it goes well with your soul.

Proverbs 17:22 ESV / 114 helpful votes

A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.

Matthew 10:1 ESV / 111 helpful votes

And he called to him his twelve disciples and gave them authority over unclean spirits, to cast them out, and to heal every disease and every affliction.

Psalm 147:3 ESV / 110 helpful votes

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

Matthew 10:8 ESV / 107 helpful votes

Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse lepers, cast out demons. You received without paying; give without pay.

Deuteronomy 7:15 ESV / 97 helpful votes

And the Lord will take away from you all sickness, and none of the evil diseases of Egypt, which you knew, will he inflict on you, but he will lay them on all who hate you.

Philippians 4:19 ESV / 86 helpful votes

And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.

Psalm 41:3 ESV / 85 helpful votes

The Lord sustains him on his sickbed; in his illness you restore him to full health.

Proverbs 4:20-22 ESV / 71 helpful votes

My son, be attentive to my words; incline your ear to my sayings. Let them not escape from your sight; keep them within your heart. For they are life to those who find them, and healing to all their flesh.
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I have struggled with depression, and I've experienced a lot of improvement. I've been taking antidepressant medication, and also, I've been working the 12 steps of Emotions Anonymous:

 1. We admitted we were powerless over our emotions, that our lives had become unmanageable.

 2.Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

 3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.

 4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.

 5. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.

 6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.

 7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.

 8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.

 9. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.

 10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.

 11. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contract with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.

 12. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message and to practice these principles in all our affairs.

Emotions Anonymous, a fellowship of people recovering from emotional problems like anxiety, depression and anger.

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Profile Photo ago by dolphin007 ANGEL24K (236k points)   7 7 12

1. Anima Christi

Soul of Christ, sanctify me; Body of Christ, save me; Blood of Christ, inebriate me; Water from the side of Christ, wash me; Passion of Christ, strengthen me; O good Jesus, hear me; within Thy wounds, hide me; let me never be separated from Thee; from the evil one, deliver me; at the hour of my death, call me and bid me come to Thee, that with Thy saints, I may praise Thee forever and ever. Amen.

2. Prayer Against Malefice from the Greek Ritual

God, our Lord, King of ages, All-powerful and All-mighty, You Who made everything and Who transform everything simply by Your will. You Who in Babylon changed into dew the flames of the ‘seven-times hotter’ furnace and protected and saved the three holy children. You are the doctor and the physician of our soul. You are the salvation of those who turn to You.

We beseech You to make powerless, banish, and drive out every diabolic power, presence, and machination; every evil influence, malefice, or evil eye and all evil actions aimed against Your servant [name of person/s]. Where there is envy and malice, give us an abundance of goodness, endurance, victory, and charity.

O Lord, You Who love man, we beg You to reach out Your powerful hands and Your most high and mighty arms and send the angel of peace over us, to protect us, body and soul. May he keep at bay and vanquish every evil power, every poison or malice invoked against us by corrupt and envious people.

Then, under the protection of Your authority may we sing, in gratitude, ‘The Lord is my salvation; whom should I fear? I will not fear evil because You are with me, my God, my strength, my powerful Lord, Lord of peace, Father of all ages.”

Yes, Lord our God, be merciful to us, Your image, and save your servant [name of person/s] from every threat or harm from the evil one, and protect him/her by raising him/her above all evil. We ask You this through the intercession of our Most Blessed, glorious Lady, Mary ever Virgin, Mother of God, of the most splendid archangels and all Your saints. Amen!

3. Prayer for Deliverance

My Lord, you are all powerful, you are God, you are Father. We beg you through the intercession and help of the archangels Michael, Raphael and Gabriel, for the deliverance of our brothers and sisters who are enslaved by the evil one. All saints of Heaven, come to our aid.

From anxiety, sadness and obsessions, we beg You. Free us, O Lord. From hatred, fornication, envy, we beg You, Free us, O Lord. From thoughts of jealousy, rage, and death, we beg You, Free us, O Lord. From every thought of suicide and abortion, we beg You, Free us, O Lord. From every form of sinful sexuality, we beg You, Free us, O Lord.

From every division in our family, and every harmful friendship, we beg You, Free us, O Lord. From every sort of spell, malefic, witchcraft, and every form of the occult, we beg You, Free us, O Lord.

Lord, You Who said, “I leave you peace, My peace I give you,” grant that, through the intercession of the Virgin Mary, we may be liberated from every evil spell and enjoy your peace always. In the name of Christ, our Lord. Amen.

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