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I am in an abusive relationship and have been for years. I realize that everything is my fault, just want to clear that up before I go any further. I have been battling the worst depression that in the beginning almost cost me my life. I have had issues getting employment as a result of some trouble an  ex got me into almost 6 Years ago that made a bad situation worse. The only reason I got out of bed at all was because of my three dogs that I had. I have since then lost two of them. One I had to give up due to me living in my vehicle and the stress another one has due to trauma of a collision that had damaged him severely but only mentally. The other my little baby girl Mariah was the oldest of my babies. She was a beautiful 4 lb min pin who loved me with all of her heart. She was an older gal and I am pretty sure that she died due to the heat and her age. I suffer with guilt of that every day. So I'm down to George. He's my big strong man. He needs me just as much as I need him. I finally got the strength up to leave our abuser and to try and make it to a program or shelter or anything that would accept me and George to start a new life. A productive one. Where we can both heal and start to appreciate life again. Maybe even be able to afford to go Washington State and see my beautiful new grandbaby and my daughter that I miss dearly. But as my bad luck has it my van broke down. I'm almost positive that my evil ex had something to do with it. I have tried numerous times to get disability due to my mental state and failed. I have tried to find work and failed. I have no one. I honestly don't. I never have. Besides George I truly know the feeling of loneliness. To the core loneliness. I have always been a good person to people. I have always helped a friend in need when I could. But there are no resources where I live to accommodate myself and George and I think if I gave him up it would put me back into the state of giving up too. I am unable to go to doctors appointments and I just can't lose him. He's family. He's all I have left. Please. Help me fix my van so that we can go to where ever we need to go and not lose each other. He will surely be put down if he had to be surrended. When the accident occured he was riding in his favorite seat of my old 2005 Scion Xb. Which was right in the back of the box where he could watch the traffic behind us. No one was injured in the collision luckily. But the mental damage that it caused poor George is terrifying. Multiple police have threatened to shoot him and he would scare someone to death if they tried to adopt him if I had to surrender him. He's only like this while in the vehicle and others get close to the vehicle. Once I get home out he's his usual self and would **** you to death maybe. But never vicious like inside. He was the best rider ever before. It makes me so sad to see him like that. But it also gives me such grief even thinking about surrendering him so that I could take advantage of the resources in my town so that I can get myself back together. I couldn't bare the thought of him scaring someone that adopted him on their ride home. I don't know what would happen with the fear and adrenaline that they both would have. Beside that. I don't know how I would survive it. So I guess my point is that it is out of the question. We are suffering dearly as a result though. Idk maybe I'm being selfish. I just know that if this van would get us there. I would do the work for us. I love him so much it hurts and I know he loves me the same which gives me reason to keep on. If there's anyone that can help us. Please. Give me this opportunity to get us free from abuse and start our process of healing. We need each other. I refuse to give up. I have contacted domestic violence shellers. There are no homeless shelters. I'm unaware of any other resources. I don't even have anyone that I could call to take me to any place. I am truly alone other than George.
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Profile Photo by dolphin007 ANGEL24K (305k points)   7 7 12
Psalm 91

1Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High

will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. a

2I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,

my God, in whom I trust.”

3Surely he will save you

from the fowler’s snare

and from the deadly pestilence.

4He will cover you with his feathers,

and under his wings you will find refuge;

his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

5You will not fear the terror of night,

nor the arrow that flies by day,

6nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,

nor the plague that destroys at midday.

7A thousand may fall at your side,

ten thousand at your right hand,

but it will not come near you.

8You will only observe with your eyes

and see the punishment of the wicked.

9If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”

and you make the Most High your dwelling,

10no harm will overtake you,

no disaster will come near your tent.

11For he will command his angels concerning you

to guard you in all your ways;

12they will lift you up in their hands,

so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.

13You will tread on the lion and the cobra;

you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

14“Because he b loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;

I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.

15He will call on me, and I will answer him;

I will be with him in trouble,

I will deliver him and honor him.

16With long life I will satisfy him

and show him my salvation.”
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Profile Photo by dolphin007 ANGEL24K (305k points)   7 7 12
THE 52 EPISODES OF FLYING HOUSE

1. BLAST OFF FOR THE PAST

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-1

2. STAR SPANGLED NIGHT

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-2

3. LOST AND FOUND IN TIME

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-3

4. VOICE IN THE WILDERNESS

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-4

5. SPEAK OF THE devil

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-5

6. ALL THAT GLITTERS

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-6

7. MILITARY SECRETS

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-7

8. THE PRIZE THAT WAS WON AND LOST

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-8

9. ANOTHER LIFE

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-9

10. THE RUNAWAY

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-10

11. NEIGHBORS

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-11

12. POOR LITTLE RICH MEN

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-12

13. THE GREATEST

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-13

14. BACK FROM THE GRAVE

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-14

15. REAL TREASURE

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-15

16. WHAT IF....?

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-16

17. THE LOST SHEEP

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-17

18. SOUR GRAPES

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-18

19. DOG GONE

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-19

20. LITTLE ORPHAN ANNA

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-20

21. A WORD TO THE WISE

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-21

22. JUDGEMENT DAY

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-22

23. POSSESED

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-23

24. OVER THE HILL

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-24

25. TRUE FRIENDS

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-25

26. devil's GATE

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-26

27. WELL, WELL, WELL!

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-27

28. LEFT HOLDING THE BAG

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-28

29. WHO AMONG YOU...!

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-29

30. OIL AND WATER

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-30

31. A SPECIAL SECRET

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-31

32. MIDNIGHT CALLERS

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-32

33. WHAT IT'S WORTH

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-33

34. FRUITLESS

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-34

35. FOOD FOR A KING

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-35

36. THE SECRET AGENT

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-36

37. THE PREPARATION

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-37

38. BETRAYED

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-38

39. WHO'S IN CHARGE

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-39

40. CROWN OF THORNS

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-40

41. GOLGOTHA

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-41

42. THE EMPTY TOMB

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-42

43. WITH YOU ALWAYS

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-43

44. THE PRISON BREAK

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-44

45. GOOD RIDDANCE

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-45

46. THE BLINDING LIGHT

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-46

47. UNSHACKLED

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-47

48. TENDER GRAPES

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-48

49. SHIPWRECKED

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-49

50. SNAKEBITE

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-50

51. HEARTBREAK

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-51

52. HOMEWARD BOUND

http://www1.cbn.com/content/flying-house-episode-52

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