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lately i've been thinking a lot and i've come to the conclusion that nobody actually cares for me. i have a few friends but they don't seem to do much for me whereas i do a ton for them. i seem to get everything thrown back in my face when i try to help someone and i don't get along with most people. i feel like i'm about to explode but then again i just feel so empty and numb like there's nothing there. there doesn't seem to be anything left for me and i've been told countless times by my 'friends' that peoples lives would be happier and better without me here.. i've come to believe them because i've been told the same by various people. i began self harming when i was 13 and i am now 15, each time i do it i do it more times or deeper than normal. lastnight i destroyed my arms and my legs and slashed them all up and it gave me so much relief from everything. the blood relaxes me, i know it sounds odd but it's the only thing that puts me into my own world where i can forget about everything. i only have 3 true friends and they a self harm too so i try to help them as much as i can although i have my own problems to try and sort out too. they appreciate me for who i am and they don't judge me for anything i do or say. they know almost everything about me and i couldn't ask for anyone better than them but recently i feel like they've been drifting away from me. they're becoming distant and i don't see or talk to them often anymore. the boy i like lead me on for a year and then dropped me when he got what he wanted out of me. i feel violated and used and unloved.. should i just end it all? should i end this pain and torture? i can't make decisions for myself anymore..please help, i want to die
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People care about you and love you. You are not alone. Cutting yourself doesn't relieve anything; it is punishment for your sins.  You're addicted to pain and mutilation. Please seek some professional help before your seriously hurt yourself. And stop hurting yourself with others; it's perverted to want to torture and bleed with others doing the same.

A 15 year old shouldn't be into ***** blood fetishism club. This is why you're being phased out of people's lives. You want to live, so how about trying it without hurting yourself. There's nothing to be ashamed of, but you need professional help to get you to understand the difference between pleasure and pain and why inflicting pain upon yourself isn't pleasure.
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its a long time since you posted.... so I hope you are finding ways forward.

I understand how that feels when you have to balance the pain in you mind with pain on your body. Somehow it feels a comfort and release.

Try small acts of creation, a drawing/painting, tattoo design, cooking, painting your room, make an item of clothing, instead of destructive acts.  You never know where it might take you.
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Please, find help. There ARE people out there who genuinely CARE about you. You seem to be going this all alone. Though you don't know me, I have too suffered much personal pain. It sounds like you are a beautiful person inside who needs someone who loves her unconditionally, who will really LISTEN, and won't just drop you when they see the "darkside". Take the first bstep. You aren't "different" from other people, or strange, or anything like that. Everyone has problems- even people who seem like they've really "got it all together". The first step is recognize that you need help. We're all in this together! The loneliness must be excruciating. Please, because you are unique, valauble, and special, get some help. There are compassionate people out there. Going it alone won't work if you've reached this level of unhappiness. You don't have to be perfect. Just look for life to get better, one step at a time. I'll be praying for you and hoping you'll reach out. Don't waste your life because you've been used. people who desperately want love tend to reach out to anyone who shows them some affection and often just get burned again. There are decent guys out there. But don't be in a rush. A quality person is worth shopping around for- mostly because YOU are a special person who deserves to be loved just for who you are. This'll take time, but what you see now doesn't have to be your future forever. Do you believe you are worth more? Please see yourself as lovable and get help.
Dont end it No No No, Things will eventuallly get better and I promise You that- Im struggling with lots of problems at min but Im trying to ride it through.

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1. Anima Christi

Soul of Christ, sanctify me; Body of Christ, save me; Blood of Christ, inebriate me; Water from the side of Christ, wash me; Passion of Christ, strengthen me; O good Jesus, hear me; within Thy wounds, hide me; let me never be separated from Thee; from the evil one, deliver me; at the hour of my death, call me and bid me come to Thee, that with Thy saints, I may praise Thee forever and ever. Amen.

2. Prayer Against Malefice from the Greek Ritual

God, our Lord, King of ages, All-powerful and All-mighty, You Who made everything and Who transform everything simply by Your will. You Who in Babylon changed into dew the flames of the ‘seven-times hotter’ furnace and protected and saved the three holy children. You are the doctor and the physician of our soul. You are the salvation of those who turn to You.

We beseech You to make powerless, banish, and drive out every diabolic power, presence, and machination; every evil influence, malefice, or evil eye and all evil actions aimed against Your servant [name of person/s]. Where there is envy and malice, give us an abundance of goodness, endurance, victory, and charity.

O Lord, You Who love man, we beg You to reach out Your powerful hands and Your most high and mighty arms and send the angel of peace over us, to protect us, body and soul. May he keep at bay and vanquish every evil power, every poison or malice invoked against us by corrupt and envious people.

Then, under the protection of Your authority may we sing, in gratitude, ‘The Lord is my salvation; whom should I fear? I will not fear evil because You are with me, my God, my strength, my powerful Lord, Lord of peace, Father of all ages.”

Yes, Lord our God, be merciful to us, Your image, and save your servant [name of person/s] from every threat or harm from the evil one, and protect him/her by raising him/her above all evil. We ask You this through the intercession of our Most Blessed, glorious Lady, Mary ever Virgin, Mother of God, of the most splendid archangels and all Your saints. Amen!

3. Prayer for Deliverance

My Lord, you are all powerful, you are God, you are Father. We beg you through the intercession and help of the archangels Michael, Raphael and Gabriel, for the deliverance of our brothers and sisters who are enslaved by the evil one. All saints of Heaven, come to our aid.

From anxiety, sadness and obsessions, we beg You. Free us, O Lord. From hatred, fornication, envy, we beg You, Free us, O Lord. From thoughts of jealousy, rage, and death, we beg You, Free us, O Lord. From every thought of suicide and abortion, we beg You, Free us, O Lord. From every form of sinful sexuality, we beg You, Free us, O Lord.

From every division in our family, and every harmful friendship, we beg You, Free us, O Lord. From every sort of spell, malefic, witchcraft, and every form of the occult, we beg You, Free us, O Lord.

Lord, You Who said, “I leave you peace, My peace I give you,” grant that, through the intercession of the Virgin Mary, we may be liberated from every evil spell and enjoy your peace always. In the name of Christ, our Lord. Amen.

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