Hey there, it sounds like you could use some help right now. It also sounds you need some hope. That is something I could probably help with. Like the person before me, you need to realize that being negative all the time is bad for you and those around you. Phillipians 2: 14, "Do all things without murmurrings and disputings."
Another thing that you are probably doing right now is also hindering you. "The fool hath said in his heart, there is no God. They are corrupt, thay have done abominable works, there is none that doeth good. The LORD looked down from heaven upon the children of men, to see if there were any that did understand, and seek God. They are all gone aside,they are all together become filthy: there is none that doeth good, no, not one." Psalm 14:1,2,3
Psalm 9:17,"The wicked shall be turned into h.e.l.l., and all nations that forget God."
Isaiah 57:20,"The wicked are like the troubled sea, when it cannot rest, whose waters cast up mire and dirt."
Romans 6:23,"For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord."
If you think that Mary is God, than her last words were to the servants in the wedding feast in Cana: "Whatsoever he saith unto you, do it." Also in Acts, she is praying to God for things she could have done if she were God. Acts 2:14,"But ye shall receive power, after that the Holy Ghost is come upon you:... These all continued with one accord in prayer and supplication, wih the women, and Mary the mother of Jesus, and his brethren." If Mary was God, than why did not she send the Holy Spirit, and not Jesus? If she were God, than she would have died on Calvary, but the scripture is very clear otherwise.
Acts 2:36,"Therefore let all the house of Isreal know assuredly, that God hath made that same Jesus, whom ye crucified, both Lord and Christ."
Psalm 16:10b,"neither wilt thou suffer thine Holy One to see corruption."
As God is holy, and no one else is, therefore the conclusion must be made that Jesus is God.
As God is holy, sin cannot be in heaven. Psalm 1:5, "Therefore the ungodly shall not stand in the judgement, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous."
John 3:16,"For God so oved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him, should not perish but have everlasting life."
Luke 13:5, "I tell you, Nay, but, escept ye repent, ye shall all likewise perish."
Psalm 2:12, "Kiss the Son, lest he be angry, and ye perish from the way, when his wrath is kindled but a little. Blessed are all they that put their trust in him."
Romans 10:13,"For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved."