I already tried to post this but haven't seen it appear yet. I don't really know what to ask for so I present my situation, ask for prayer and if anyone thinks they might be able to help I beg of you to please do so!!!! I am a strong believer in paying it forward and do so every chance I get, is it possible there could be someone out there to help us? Even if it's just a shoulder to lean on or another brain to bounce ideas off of.
1)Please pray for my son who has literally lost his mind. The cause could be 3 things, brain injury, someone slipping him something at work or onset of mental illness. We know the first two options happened in the events leading up to the night we actually "lost" him but the hospital is adamant that it is mental illness and continues to shove extremely potent drugs down his throat possibly making things worse. He is here with us in body but his mind is almost completely gone, he is uninsured, has a baby on the way and his medical bills are spiraling out of control.
2)Please pray for my daughter who is currently the only one working, struggling to keep our family afloat.
3) Please pray for the babies ( my youngest daughter-5 & granddaughter-5) as they don't understand all that is going on & are really acting out.
4) Please pray for my fiancee who is struggling with all that is going on and is not sure if he can continue on with our family. Also he and I are expecting a baby which we always said if it happened- it happened but now he hounds me relentlessly about an abortion.
5) Please pray for me to find a job as I have always been the matriarch of this family and the one for everyone to lean on but am quickly running out of resources to keep our family going. I can't even afford shampoo, gas for the truck or trash service and the mounting trash that I can't take anywhere is really adding to the overwhelming feeling of being out of control.
I know these aren't the worst problems of the world and all will eventually work out but I'm really beginning to feel hopeless at the moment, yes suicide crosses the mind often as it has through out my life. But thankfully my children have saved me from ever acting upon such foolishness because they need me and give me a reason to keep on pushing forward. It's just me and my children always has been since I was 13, no other family to lean on The only thing keeping me sane right now is the volunteer work I do at a local church to help low income families. I know it may seem that there ought to be someone for us to reach out to for help. Especially since I volunteer at a church but really most of the congregation there are in just as desperate situations or have very limited means so prayer is all they can offer and for that I am grateful. Please please please pray for us. Thank you thank you thank you.