I can understand a little bit of what you are feeling. The rest, I have not had to experience. I can understand wanting to go through the slow recovery process. I can also understand wanting to have avoided the whole mess.
However, I have another point I want to cover. It is a good thing to think of yourself and want to let yourself heal. It is also a good thing though to keep you mind calm. You need to have someone you can tell these to, but you do not need to pick up the stress again, even though you do have certain responsibilities. A friend can help quite a bit, or a close confidant. The one I found who can take the stress, and work things out, though you still have regular house/work/family responsibilities, is Jesus.
(Mat 11:28) Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
(Mat 11:29) Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
(Mat 11:30) For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
However, He also said, "I tell you, Nay: but, except ye repent, ye shall all likewise perish. " (Luke 13:3)
(Luke 5:32) I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.
(Romans 3:23) For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God.
(1 John 3:4) Whosoever committeth sin transgresseth also the law: for sin is the transgression of the law.
(Rev 21:8) But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.
But he gave us hope.
(John 10:15) As the Father knoweth me, even so know I the Father: and I lay down my life for the sheep.
(John 10:16) And other sheep I have, which are not of this fold: them also I must bring, and they shall hear my voice; and there shall be one fold, and one shepherd.
(John 10:17) Therefore doth my Father love me, because I lay down my life, that I might take it again.
(John 10:18) No man taketh it from me, but I lay it down of myself. I have power to lay it down, and I have power to take it again. This commandment have I received of my Father.
(Romans 6:23) For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.
(John 3:16) For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
(Romans 10:9) That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
So, the promises are true and the warning is also true. Jesus requires that you trust him for salvation from sin and its consequences before he can help you other ways. He is still helping you by giving you air to breath and allowing you to live in your area and in you circumstances.
Some more promises would be:
(Psalm 56:3) What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee.
(Psalm 23) A Psalm of David. The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.