Hey, you are not being ignored. At least not here. I am guessing that as you are on auto pilot, nobody really realizes what you are going through. I do have some very true news for you, though. You need to cheer up, and put your mind on something else. I can tell you it will be hard. Isaiah 57:2, "But the wicked are like the troubled sea, when it cannot rest, whose waters cast up mire and dirt." Why does God call people wicked? Psalm 10:4, "The wicked, through the pride of his countenance, will not seek after God: God is not in all his thoughts." Psalm 59:12, "For the sin of their mouth and the words of their lips let them even be taken in their pride: and for cursing and lying which they speak. " Romans 3:23, "For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God." Because people are sinners, there is a punishment. Revelations 21:8, "But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death. " Romans 6:23a, "For the wages of sin is death,..." That is because God is holy. Holiness is perfection. Isaiah 6:3, "And one cried unto another, and said, Holy, holy, holy, is the LORD of hosts: the whole earth is full of his glory." Isaiah 59:2, " But your iniquities have separated between you and your God, and your sins have hid his face from you, that he will not hear. "
I have good news for you. Jesus is the way. Romans 6:23b, "...But the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord." John 14:6, "Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me. " John 10:15, "As the Father knoweth me, even so know I the Father: and I lay down my life for the sheep. " John 3:13, "And no man hath ascended up to heaven, but he that came down from heaven, even the Son of man which is in heaven." Verse 13 could only happen if Jesus was God. John 10:30, " I and my Father are one." John 3:16, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life."
So, what do you do? You need to repent. Luke 13:3, "I tell you, Nay: but, except ye repent, ye shall all likewise perish. " Psalm 2:12, "Kiss the Son, lest he be angry, and ye perish from the way, when his wrath is kindled but a little. Blessed are all they that put their trust in him." And when that happens, you become a child of God. John 1:12, 13, "But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:Which were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God."
As children of God, you receive a purpose, and many promises. Revelation 4:11, "Thou art worthy, O Lord, to receive glory and honour and power: for thou hast created all things, and for thy pleasure they are and were created. " Hebrews 13:5,6, "Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me."