Everything in my life came crashing down a few years ago, and I had always thought suicide was the only way out. That is until; I met the love of my life.
I am very young, months under the age of 18. my boyfriend is a few years older than me. we live 50 miles apart. we both live at home, with our parent/s. he has had a tricky life, his father killed himself not long ago and he's never had a break from that. We have found peace within one another, and we are now able to cope. we speak every day, all the time. we are on each others mind each and every moment. we often speak of the future together; marriage and children. I know he is the one. people have told me that when you find 'The One', you will automatically know. I didn't believe them until I experienced what finding him.
MY PROBLEM -
My family have not always been there for me, I have a difficult relationship with my parents due to horrific past events.
I have not been separated from my family for a while, I feel a break is hugely overdue.
I want... NEED... to spend a few nights away, with my one true love. My family stand in the way of me acting on this desire, therefore I still remain without him.
I have told my mother of me wanting to stay with my love, she laughed in my face.
She doesn't care for another humans happiness, you see.
This is what I need to do. He will come to my house, We will spend a few hours together. When we say goodbye, I will walk him to his car. Instead of going back to my 'home', where I am most miserable, I will go with him. Back to his house, where we can be us, and spend time together that I know both our mental health will benefit from, not to mention how much closer it will bring us. It will only be for 2 nights. I plan on returning. He has a job, so unfortunately the idea of me never returning is simply not realistic, nor possible.
please, what do you think of this plan? do you have any other suggestions of how I could go about this? whatever it is, the outcome must be that I will spend a few nights away from the stress of life here and the weight of my family pressing down on me. I have never done anything bad, ever. Never have I smoked, touched an illegal drug, or been under the influence of alcohol, I have never done anything drastic that is against my parents wishes. It has always been about what they want, what about me? what about what I want. I believe I deserve this, I deserve to be the happiest I can be.
Replies will be very much appreciated.