Greetings Horwood! I know how hard it is to be in your situation right now! But always remember this.. these people who have fake smiles and turn you down.. just don't mind them. Instead think of this.. there's a very powerful Lord God Almighty from up above who's trillion times bigger than the entire Universe & Heaven that He own who will always be there for you 24/7.
His blessing comes in different ways.. sometimes you see it.. sometimes you don't! Please don't despise our beloved Lord God Almighty 'cuz He is our refuge and savior all the time! If you start to loose your faith in Him then His evil enemy and you know that horrifying creature that's just roaming around the vacuum or third dimension atmosphere won't think twice to attack one if his/her thoughts and emotion is in distress. That evil creature that can't be seen by our ***** eyes will fuel more hatred or anger within you 'cuz the anger and torments that a person experience in life are the one that energizes these evil creature.
You may notice that when we are angry to the max.. then our energy is being consumed 'cuz we always have to remember that negative feelings that's inside of us will always drain us.
Look when we pray to our Lord God Almighty from the bottom of our heart.. these negative, evil thoughts and emotions fades away. Like me normally when I am in distress I always ask for forgiveness for all the sins that I have done in the past and pray to our Lord God Almighty to help me 'cuz I can't bear it anymore. Look when we admit to our Lord God Almighty that we are sinners and helpless.. you may cry.. then eventually you'll feel a sudden arrival of calming feeling that cleanses our thoughts and emotions 'cuz you know what.. this is the Divine Grace that God send to each and every humanity 24/7.. all we have to do is to beg and ask for forgiveness from Him all the time..
Look all of us in this world are sinners.. wether you're the Head of State, Pope, Nuns, Richest Man in the World, Poorest of the poor, etc. etc. Like me I'm a sinner and so is the rest of the whole Humanity from Afghanistan to Zimbabwe. We can only achieve the state of Perfection when all of us the whole humanity is already inside the Kingdom of Heaven frm up above. But while we are here in this world we will always encounter different kind of stress in life.
Nevertheless, each and everyone of us are doing our good, better, best, righteous, & Holy shot in order for us to become worthy before the Divine & Holy presence of our Lord God Almighty at the end of time. All of us are just temporary visitors in this beautiful planet earth and each and everyone of us may pass away thru natural old age process, thru unavoidable car accident & other forms of accident, through disease but we can't pass away or were not allowed to pass away by being killed by somebody, or we kill ourselves thru suicide or euthanasia like those patients begging for it if they can't bear the pain of their disease anymore like cancers etc.
We always have to remember that our beautiful life no matter how hard it is will always be precious and no amount of money could ever pay for all the lives that is lost. It is only our Lord God Almighty to the Highest Pedestal Throne King from up above has all the right to take the life that He has given to each and every humanity.
So while we are still alive let's do all the good, better, best, righteous, & Holy shot that we could possibly do. Let's always be a blessing to each and everyone and like those people who turn you down please pray for these people 'cuz these people don't know what they're doing.
Remember the agony of our Lord God Almighty Son Jesus Christ before He was crucified at Mt. Calvary. All these sinful people along the way have insulted Him and they're shouting.. Crucify Him.. and they never thought that He will be the one who will save all of us from all the sins that we ever committed. Like me whenever I recall the Crucifiction of our Lord God Almighty Son Jesus Christ.. I always cry 'cuz I can't take the suffering that He has been through until He was crucified 'cuz I always think that it should be all of us the whole humanity who should have been crucified for all the sins that we have done. But He as the most Powerful Lord God Almighty Son Jesus Christ the redeemer humbly took that super mega burden in the History of humanity just to save all of us 'cuz it was the Divine & Holy will of our Lord God Almighty Holy Father & Holy Spirit from up above in heaven that's why that event took place.
That's why even if we combine all of our suffering in this world from old times up to the present! It can't even match the suffering of our Lord God Almighty Son Jesus Christ on His crucifiction at the Mt. Calvary way back 'cuz He is our Immaculate, Sacred, Divine & Holy Lord God Almighty..
That's why please don't loose your faith to our Lord God Almighty 'cuz He will always be there for us 24/7..
Always try to do your good, better, best, righteous, Holy shot on a day 2 day basis 'cuz let's always admit that each and every one of us will be judged at the end of times based on all of the total combination of all the good things that we did that pleases our Lord God Almighty when we were still alive..
Thanks and God bless you my friend and your whole family always & forever..
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