Sweetheart, I am so sorry you feel this way. Do you feel that death is the only answer? I am here and I know you dont know me, but you are not alone. I cannot pretend to understand what its like for you because I could never possibly know, but I can try.
Tell me a little more about how your feeling at the moment?
How can you be happy while being abused mentally and physically??
Call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1−800−799−SAFE (7233)
Your relationship with him is not healthy, and it will only get worse if you tolerate it this way. Toleration is not love. If you truly love him, you should help him to stop the abuse NOW!
I have to agree with Hope that you should take necessary steps to ensure the safety of both you and your child. You can’t change your ex, only God can do that. As a single mom who has also dealt with an abusive ex, I can tell you that time will heal the pain if you let it. Get the help you need to ensure you’re safe and love on that little child with all your heart. That child needs you and will bring joy back into your life, just focus on that and keep moving forward.
On top of the pain of losing/fighting my ex, I also had a lot of fear as to how I could do it on my own. If you’re fighting fear as well, I highly recommend checking into local pregnancy care centers. Here’s a good site for finding them – http://www.optionline.org/get-help. Our local one was a huge help to me, both with the needs of my child and the love and support I really needed, and I know they work with mom’s with older kids too. I hope one can help you in your area. A lot churches have great programs for single moms as well. Don’t ever listen to the lie that you can’t do it – I know it is more than just possible. Hang in there! God bless you and keep you!
I think it would be best to leave him and start a new life be strong and be brave your kids need you more it will effect them if you do thing like that, your kids are your happiness not him I know it’s easy to say then doing but trust me killing yourself isn’t the key. I beileve in you I know you can do this…you deserve to be happy you will find someone who will make you feel very special then you already are I agree what hope said.