Thank you for sharing your precious story. You are not alone. Many others have lost long term friends/partners. It is hard to adapt to the new life, but time will heal. And we can often shorten the recovery time by having an active and positive life style with meaningful and interesting activities.
You have been so much dedicated to your partner’s life and problems, and you forget about your own. Please take good care of yourself. You deserve to be happy. This might be a great opportunity, even you can’t see it this way at this moment.
It is also helpful to look at the situation from an outside perspective. It is part of the life journey. We often have different path and there will be time when we will have to wave goodbye to our friends/partners in part of this journey. The train will start and leave the station … so we all should move on …
For a better future!!!!