Thank you for sharing your story with us.
Are you seeing a doctor about the depression and pain? I strongly suggest you talk with school councilor or your parents, and ask for professional help.
"it seems like everyone is living better than I am" – This is just how it seems, but everyone has his/her own difficulties to deal with.
I would like you to watch the movie Wonder or read the book this weekend. Like Auggie, please continue your journey to discover great friendship, your unique strength, and great purpose … please never give up!
You are not alone! Call the helpline anytime:
The Lifeline (US) at 1-800-273-TALK (8255)
The Hopeline (US) at 1-800-SUICIDE (784-2433)
In your seemingly dark and cold world, be the match, after breaking the resistance, it ignites, giving out light and heat. Life is short, please make it shine … HOPE