Please do not hurt yourself. There are right ways to make positive changes in your life.
I know it is hard for a stranger to under the pain you are having, but I have strong faith in you and the world that you can find a true solution to your problems.
You are not alone. You also don’t need to fight by yourself. Talk with a doctor or professional.
Your family might hate some of your words/actions, but please trust me that they don’t hate YOU. Please open to them and let them know your issues and ask them to help you and get professional help for you.
You can also be happy if you accept the fact that everyone is unique with strength and weakness. There are different ways to reach your life goals. May other doors open to you.
P.S. Please don’t hesitate to call the hotline if you want to talk:
The Lifeline (US) at 1-800-273-TALK (8255)