See your doctor, It sounds like you may be experiencing a manic episode. Doctors can diagnose this condition after doing other tests to rule out organic problems. Their is hope, slow down and take a breath, As Jesus said for all the worrying people do, can tey even extend their life for even a moment. My suggestion would be to ask God for guidance and help. Why not go straight to the creator with your questions. Asking the universe will not help. The universe was made by God for man. God loved man so much he created him in his own image and with his breath gave man life. So my philosophical friend, eliminate the middle man (the universe) and go straight to our creature. He is waiting for your call and is a very good listener and problem solver. Here is his number: In the name of the Father, and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Being there then ask him directly for assistance. Jesus told us that whatever is asked for in his name shall be given. God bless you and I pray that the Holy Spirit enlightens your part in life and gives you peace. Your friend papasmurf, A.K.A. Rick B.