Just needed to speak with someone

Question

So many problems I've had in such a small time. From being a mother, wife. Nice house. I went from perfect life to hell in just a couple of weeks.
Financial problems due to loss of work and then the relation ship with my partner then went bad. We are still together.
Lost our house, everything.
Moved to England to start over again. But it's so hard. I'm so done with all the problems. It's so horrible and so unfair for my 3 young boys that they had to loose everything they had too.

I'm so done with my husband who doesn't seems to care that I feel awful. He just turns around and falls in sleep. He has got his good parts, but defiantly his bad ones too. He never was like this before. I hope when things are ok again that he will be his old self again. I'm sure I'll be different at the moment too, due to all the stress that I/we have.

I'm done with the financial problems. I'm so done with always having to safe the day. No fun in being the hero. No money, I just have to find a way to get something. Applying for child benefit, housing benefit is not an easy job! Nor a fun one.

What can I spend this week on food? How much on petrol? Flat tyre. New school uniform.

I'm hurting myself. Not something I can control it just happens.

But I'll make it. I'm working as a webcam girl. Hate every second of it. But it makes enough money for us to pay the bills. We just moved into a house where we can stay for a long time. Soon I'll find a nice job. My time will come. I'll enjoy life again. I'll smile again, a real smile. I'll dance and laugh.

Things are getting better,
Just got to show the world of what I'm made of.
Thanks for just being there.

Answer 1

Thanks for sharing your life experience.

With such positive attitude and hard work, I have not doubt that you and your family will go through this difficult time soon.

May God Bless You and Your Family!

Answer 2

First of all  your the bravest boldest woman I've ever heard don't ever give up hope, of what had happened that is why your partner behaving like that he needs to pull himself up together and he needs your support and I don't think sweetie this is a good job for you as a webcam girl if you have some talent do that, you can show your talent in youtube if you get enough views on your video then you can sell the video and get money there are thousands of work you can do... with that attitude your life will get better.

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Answer 3

you say you need somebody to talk to and i can do that. i realize nobody can disuade you from your path since it works but still somebody can talk to you and help you feel just a tad bit better. i want to talk to you and get to know you. even if you dont smile i would like to know your story. please contact me.

Answer 4

Hi

I am sorry you have gone through so much. I am sure your kids are worth it... Hold your head up. You are supporting your family, and you are a strong admirable woman. I think therapy would help your family. At the very least you need some support. Come here and share with us. We are here to help. I hope that by now you have gotten some sort of government assistance. It sounds like you are really hurting.

I hope that by now you have found work, and I truly hope you have been able to stop work as a webcam girl. You should not however feel any shame. Shake it off ... You are doing it for 3 good reasons - your boys.

Good luck.