I really see no point to alll

Question

Why bother, I lost my job in June, have been diligently searching to no avail. Tomorrow I become homeless - there is no assistance where I live.  I seem to have no one of substance in my life.   I just see no reason for any of it - I have never been so emotionally exhausted.  Please tell me why - I just can't go on like this.

Answer 1

Why bother? Because you deserve it! You deserve to bother about yourself and you deserve others to bother about you. I am on the other side of world to you right now, I don't know you and yet my heart goes out to you in your current situation.. 

While your world may be failing down around you it might sound cliche but never give up hope. Every night before you lay down to sleep even if that is on a park bench tell yourself at least one thing you are grateful for. 

Try to look for beauty in the small things. Today I was having a tough day so I spent 10 minutes just looking at a rock, my mind wandered a bit but everytime it did I gently brought my attention back to observing the rock, how it felt, the shape etc. It's a way to mindfully meditate and although it's not going to solve all your life problems it can help give you a much needed break from the pain that you're in. For more info on mindfulness you can check out this site http://www.get.gg/dbt.htm

To re iterate bother because you matter. Bother because many before you have been in the same situation and they have regrouped, got back on their feet and back into life and you can too. 

Answer 2

Hello my sweet :)

Firstly, please let me tell you that you are not alone in this situation- 1 in 4 people suffer with depression and this is not always noticeable. I myself am a sufferer but you would never know as I am always smiling. It is very easy to think or assume that you are the only person feeling this way.

You should make yourself a Doctors appointment and explain to them how you feel, they may be able to give you a low dosage of anti-depressant or put you in touch with some counselling.

I did not lose my job but I had to quit due to bullying and harrasment and decided to turn the other cheek as apposed to going throughthe courts and I, myself am not in the best financial situation, like most with bills to pay etc but I am trying to use my situation as a positive rather than let it eat me up inside.

You are the only person in control of your life and you might want to start thinking about where  you live, who you live with, what kind of job would suit your personality etc and start putting processes in  place to make some positive changes..even family sometimes are not the healthiest people to be around.

 

Please think about these things and remember that life, things, people and feelings are continuously changing- nothing stays the same for very long and the angels are looking over you whether you feel it or not my dear.

Please come back to me if you need further guidance.

Love and best wishes

Angel Helena xx